I try to tell myself
that some day I'll know what it all means
but each day that goes by
I know less and less
all my certainties are gone
I don't know myself as well as I could
I don't know a thing about the world
I don't know if I should try to learn

Or just go about my day to day
and ignore what goes on around me
live in my world
which could be a happy place
(if I let it)
give up fighting
(or the appearance of it)
give up on striving for better