I want to cry
and release this all
but I can't
because I've taught myself
not to
to be hard and cold instead
to not let the pain in
but I was stupid
I let you in
and the pain came too
I have to shut up everything
to save myself
but I still wouldn't be happy
I know
because I'm empty inside
I need someone to fill me
and I can't find that
until I let enough people in
until one fits perfectly
and doesn't let the pain in too
and will let me tell them
that I love them
and will tell me the same
not turn away and leave